We worrisome creatures

I do not understand why we humans worry with out reason, or worry before needing to worry. It is proven that most of the things we worried about never happen; so why the heck we worry??
Last week I went to the dermatologist for my semi anual check up; I had 2 moles I was worried about and of course she did not even noticed them, she said those were completely benign moles. She did found however a shady one on my arm and a not too shady one on my leg; she was not too worried about the leg one and thought that just keeping an eye on it will do it; however, she decided to extract the arm one and get a biopsy on it.
I went again today to get the stitches taken out and to find out that although the mole was not malignant and no cancer cells were present, it was an abnormal mole, and the pathology results recommended to extract the area around it just to make sure there are no abnormal/bad cells in that area either; not a bad diagnosis and just a preventive messure; and my Dr. seemed to be very cool / calm with the results and not worried at all. She even wanted to wait 3 weeks to extract the area around it just to give time for the current wound to heal and avoid having an ungly scar.
Anyway I have no reason to worry since most likey there is nothing wrong with my mole and I do not have "bad" cells there; but as soon as I got to the office I used the mighty power of the Internet to find out what really those results mean and for a few morning hours I have been freaking out......
The Internet is an awesome information tool, you can find an answer for everything, but it can also give you information that if you don't have the proper knowledge about a certain topic (especially medicine) it can literally freak you out!!
I did a google search for "Atypia" which was the only word I remembered from the Pathology results, the first thing I found was a Wikipedia Entry that said "The term atypia is also used dermatoligically and can be a precursor to melanoma.
A dermatological pathology report may show normal (junctional, compound, or intradermal) nevi, various levels of atypia (slight, moderate, severe), or melanoma. Atypia in this context is a precursor to melanoma, but is not yet melanoma.
If a mole shows slight or moderate atypia and margins are clear, no further treatment is typically needed. It would be wise to re-examine if pigmentation recurs after excision. If a mole shows slight or moderate atypia and margins are not clear, it is typical to re-excise or re-shave to get around the lesion." .... so of course after reading that I freaked out and basically assumed the worse.
I am lucky to have Drs in my family: my mother in law and father in law are both Drs and my sister in law is a medical student; so after talking to them I realized there is not much to be worried about.
I am also very lucky to be involved in Radio Lollipop, a volunteer organzation whose mission is to provide care, comfort , care and entertainment to children in hospitals. Spending time with the kids each week in the hospital and looking what they go through when they are sick definetely helps me to put things into perspective and to stop worrying about things that do not exist or that are not important.
Yesterday one of our cancer patients paid us a visit; she is a beautiful 10 year old girl or so who has been there for at least 8 months treating her disease. The first official diagnosis was not good, she was not supposed to live because of the advanced stage of her disease and she was not supposed to walk either. I remember seeing her in the cancer ward a few months ago and she was extremely frail, but I also remember that in spite of her weakness she was always up to do the activities, always had a smile in her face and it was always fun to visit her. I can not imagine what was going through this little girl's mind during her stay at the hospital and I can not imagine what her family was going through either; however, I never felt despair in them, they were always hopeful, positive, optimistic, and they always believed that soon they will leave the hospital with their little princess healed; and that is exactly what is happening. Yesterday they came to visit us to let us know that Saturday they will be leaving for good; the little princess has beaten the odds, she is getting better, soon she will be in remission, she is walking and although a little frail she is full of live. I have no doubt that she will be completely cured from her disease, and she will proof everyone of us except for her family wrong.
Today while I was freaking out because of my slightly abnormal mole I thought about her; and it opened my eyes. This little girl was given a death sentence, she had all the reasons in the world to be scared and worried and I am sure at a time she was; but she kept on going, she stopped worrying about her disease and focused and getting better; and she is getting better. I have no excuse or reason to be worried or depressed about the abnormal mole, not even my Dr. is worried; and if anything that will give me a reason to worry comes out of the second biopsy I will just remember this little princess who gave us all at Radio Lollipop quite a lesson.